remembering forever!@

So ima tart because guess why me and eric made that packed... he likes me he really likes me. so i was over thier hanging out and watching him play halo.. and well we started talking and it was 3 am so i basically fell asleep on his bed.. then he woke me and and we started talking again.. and he decides to put peter pan in because hes a loser like that.. so im lying their in his arms cause im a geek.. and watch the movie.. that's when he leans over on me.. and trys to kiss me.. TRYS being the main word here.. and me being the loser i am.. say "are you serious" im in shock at this moment and extremely tired.. why did i say that!!! stupid stupid jamie.. so like.. he felt retarded because he told charlie.. and now i dont stand a chance even though i said sorry and everything.. he owes me a date and now it's weird.. like last night we were hanging out watching movies and well..he didnt even try to talk to me.. just sitting their in silence while jessie was flirting with Cody.. who has a bf! sometimes i just dont understand.. he wants me to hang out but he doesnt talk to me? am i weird or something.. god damnit!@!!!! im a screw up.. heres this super hot guy who likes me for being me.. doesn't want me for my body and well.. fuckin A! i said something so stupid.. cause i was scared? i dont want to be hurt.. but now im hurting cause i wish i did make out with him.. cause maybe it would be different now.. so he feels turned down and i feel stupid.. so how will anything ever work out.. so jessie was trashed last night and she came over.. so we decide to leave erics and charlies house at 11.. and right when we are about to leave im like "im hungry" where are we eating.. and eric jumps up and grabs mac n chesse. doeant offer any.. but states hes making it. so me and jessie are like alright peace out foo.. so were walking towards the door and eric decides to call us pansys because were leaving.. i have to wake up at 6 am to go to work.. so me being the smart ass i am say.. so i'll spend the night if u wake me up at 5:30 and take me home than to work.. he says " fine i'll do it" i melted for about two seconds and then jessie drags me out the door! i was about to scream at her.. but i was on her back and riding her like crazy.. lol drunk people and piggy back rides doesn't work out to well.. so i squeel and i fall.. it hurt so bad.. poor drunk jessie.. but so we get to my house without getting food and i take my meds and im about to be asleep when my tummy grumbles and im really hungry.. thank god jessie was too.. cause i wanted to go eat! so Eric.. i thought we were going to be just friends and now im completely confused and really nervous around him.. this will be added on to later when i find out more about our situation..


my car is broken the clutch decided to go patooeee.. fucker..

i leave soon ahh im hyped but i'll miss eric.. what if he wont miss me? ugh damn jamie!!